Looking Back

I was going through some old notes on facebook yesterday.  I first started blogging about my illness there to let people know what was going on and how I was doing.  At the time I hadn’t decided to continue on to write this blog I now have. I was drawn in because I remember writing the words


I’m having a hard time sleeping tonight. I’m happy to say that it has nothing to do with cancer. It’s just a normal night at the end of a not normal schedule. Things on my mind have to do with the work week ahead. Things that need to get done and people I need to

Two Years With the Ostomy

I was changing my colostomy bag yesterday and it occurred to me how routine it has all become. It’s hard to believe I had my ostomy surgery back in March of 2011.  It doesn’t seem that long ago.  Here we are in 2013 and things have really been ‘normal’. I’ve been living this way for two years

American Idol and the Ostomy

February and March were busy months for me at work.  It was busy for everybody because American Idol had come to our theatre to shoot six episodes this season.  They were shooting in between our normal show schedule which meant that we would do ten shows in a week and then load in American Idol

Guest Post.

Not long ago I received a comment from Cameron Von  St. James.  He is a caregiver for his wife Heather.  He asked if he could write an article for my blog.  It was during the time I was waiting to hear back about my scan so I asked to delay it for a few weeks.

Still Cancer Free

After a few delays I finally got to see the oncologist today.  He was upbeat and happy to see me.  He told me everything looked great. It was a huge relief for me.  You would think that after a year plus, it would be easier.  It is a little, but not too much.  I was

Results Day

I am awake!  That is unusual for me. As Danielle with tell you, I’m usually out within five minutes of my head hitting the pillow.  It is even more unusual tonight because I’ve only had 4 hours of sleep from the prvious night because of work.  But here I am, awake with thoughts bouncing around

Scan Day!

This is a fairly typical day for me when I have CT scans taken for the following week.  It is usually done along with blood work.  The trick is to do the blood work first so that the iodine doesn’t screw up my blood tests.  The iodine put the kidneys in distress as they try

High Anxiety!

Like I said, it’s that time again!  The last post I talked about the time was coming up for the scans and blood work.  Well, I had my blood work today and my CT scan is tomorrow. Time again for the barium, the iodine, the laying down with my arms up in the air, not

Irrational Fear

I’m drinking a lot of water lately, is it a sign I have CANCER?!!! Sounds crazy right?  Along with that there is this: My urine seems darker than normal, is it a sign I have CANCER?!!! Unfortunately I had both those thoughts this month.  Not long, contemplative thoughts, just those irrational fear thoughts that pop up